I'm back at my cliff,
still throwing things off,
I listen to the sounds they make..
on their way down,
when it lands, will my eyes be
closed or open?

I like being the winner in love and lost. I don't like not being in control of it. Right now I feel asthough I have lost control of everything. And I don't know how to stop it all. I know one way but it's probably not healthy. It's definately not healthy.

Am extremely tired. Feel out of the loop with everything. Shortcuts and meaningless snipes.

I miss it too much...My chest aches and pains for it all. All the lights and the musty smells of the bars... The laughter and the osft drawls of those beautiful accents....



7am after hours in my PJ's...its all the rage....